Did turning 40 in the last year faze you?
I got surprisingly depressed. I was very surprised that success in my career didn't translate to peace of mind. In by 40th year, my depression meds stopped working, I was re-diagnosed (after a three-day stay at the hospital) as Bipolar II, and have experienced some real joy since, [as I am in] an outpatient program with cognitive behavioral tools. So, that said, it fazed me completely. (source)
What was the pilot that turned into the book?
Plan B. I thought that I wanted to be on a sitcom for a long time. I had been able to audition, but I never got the parts I wanted or a major development deal. So I decided I'd get it out of my system and do it myself. The premise is that a thirty-five year old, slightly built, comedian suffers a nervous breakdown onstage at the Detroit Comedy Castle and is forced to move back in with her parents, which is something that sort of happened. I had somebody heckle me at the comedy club. A woman stood up and said, "I am so fucking bored. I am so sick of you and your voices? Is anyone else here bored? Why don't you bring the other guy on?" I prepared at all, so my knees started shaking, I got a bit teary eyed, and then I was fired. So, what happens is that I move home and play all of the characters. It's my worst fear of what would happen. My mom's like, "Honey, you can't live here. We love you, but it's hard to be around you." It's not a story of triumph by any means.