I may or may not go into as much detail as I should. For that reason I will keep updating this thread from time to time in the next six months until I feel satisfied that it's enough information for someone else in a similar situation. (I also want them to know they can always MeMail me even 5+ years from now if they have any specific questions.)
None of this would have happened without the information, advice, emotional support, and validation I got from all of you. You literally saved my quality of life (maybe even my life), and you helped me realize not every person on earth is going to doubt me, judge me, or turn me away when I need help. I am so grateful to all of you for that. I may not have friends... but I felt like had "friends" these last few days because of you guys.
I'd like to apologize to all of you who contacted me personally for not replying. I also avoided the people who contacted me when I made my other thread in July. I wanted to respond... but I couldn't. I want you all to know that your attempts to reach out to me meant a lot. Please don't take my avoidance personally. I avoided everyone, not just you.
Again, thank you so much.
I do feel a little stronger, and I'm truly hopeful for the first time in a very, very long time.